The Happiness That The Shinigami Gave Me - V3 Chapter 17

Volume 3 Chapter 17

My thoughts turned into a mess as it failed to catch the meaning of Suzuno’s words.

“Huh? Huhh??”

Aren’t we already dating?

I confessed my feelings to her back on the last day of the festival last year. She happily accepted it.

“Are we…not…lovers already?”

I was panicking, but Suzuno’s gaze was firm and unmoving.

“It should be that way, but that only happened because I forced you to confess your feelings to me back on the day of the festival, Yamaoka-kun. You became my lover because of my selfishness…”

Suzuno gently raised her eyebrows.

“You’ve been avoiding me since our christmas date, right, Yuuma?”

“That’s…”

As I stumbled on my words, Suzuno seemed to take it as an affirmation to her question.

“…I figured you didn’t actually love me. Yet, you were kind enough to become my lover…”

“No.”

I took a step forward to argue, but Suzuno cut me off.

“When I take my time to think about it, there’s no reason for you to love me. Our relationship only consists of you helping me out while me being unable to repay you with anything.”

“That’s why…” Suzuno adjusted her pose.

“Since April started, I’ve been trying so hard to make you see me as a girl.”

Her brightened expressions, gentler tone and unusual kindness to everyone.

“I thought if I were to change for the better, I’d be able to get a second chance…”

I noticed her change, but all those were because of me?

A sharp pain pierced my chest.

She had been doing all this for someone like me?

I had to correct her misunderstanding, but the words wouldn’t leave my throat.

“I want to start over. I want to say ‘I love you’ properly this time and I want you to properly think about my confession.”

With her fingers tightly tied in front of her chest, Suzuno stared right into my eyes.

“Yamaoka Yuuma-kun, let me say this again. I love you. You don’t need to love me back—”

No, I couldn’t let her continue her words.

“No… Suzuno!”

It was frustrating, embarrassing, shameful. I crouched down on the spot. From where I curled my body like a ball, I couldn’t see Suzuno’s face.

Why didn’t I think a little about her feelings?

I left her after we had a date once. Imagine how much pain she was in after experiencing that.

Stop chickening out.

I looked up. In front of me was my fated girl, the love of my life, looking at me anxiously.

Suzuno thought that she had to change for me.

I put my strength in both my legs and stood up.

I have to do the same for her.

“Suzuno, I have something important to tell you, but it’s a long story, so can you spare me a little of your time later? One day after we go back to Tokyo, I’ll tell you everything.”

TL: Iyo

ED: samheart564

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