The British Girl wants to say "SUKI" not "I Love You." - Chapter 0
TL: Kkain
ED/PR: Mpk
In the summer of my second year in middle school; I, Kisaragi Manaka, had fallen in love.
It wasn’t the kind of ubiquitous love that everyone knows, but rather, a genuine, unique and heart-stopping love that only I, have experienced.
There were no special incidents, triggers nor any connections.
I just purely fell in love with her after seeing her once.
It happened in one of our joint lessons.
She and I were in different classes, however, the teacher that time fell ill, so our class and her class took the same lesson together for the first time, and that was the beginning.
I was, as usual, talking with a friend I was on good terms with inside a large multi-purpose hall.
“C’mon, Manaka. Isn’t that way too harsh?”
“Shut up, it’s an established fact that all bastards with girlfriends should experience suffering.”
It was at that time that she suddenly appeared.
“Shhh! We’re in class, you know?”
A long black-haired girl with clear eyes, lovely features and cheerful atmosphere.
Appearing before us, such a lovely girl cutely warned us with her index finger held up on her cherry lips.
“Ah, sorry.”
“…”
After giving us a warning, she then went back to the place where she once came from.
I didn’t know her name nor her face, but that retreating figure of her completely captivated me.
“See, because of your yapping, we got scolded—hey, what’s wrong?”
Seeing me absentmindedly staring in wonder, my friend, who seemed worried, peered into my face.
However, at that time, only that girl’s retreating figure entered my field of vision, completely ignoring the peering face of my friend.
“…Hey, Souta. What’s that girl’s name?”
“Hm? …Ah, that girl’s Kannazuki Sayaka-san from the class next to ours. You don’t know her? She’s quite famous at our school, you know?”
“…I see.”
I didn’t know at all.
I didn’t know that her name was Kannazuki, nor was there such a girl in the class next to ours, no, I didn’t realize at all, until now, that is.
—However, at that moment, she became an extraordinarily big existence—a part of me.
“…Souta. I… may have fallen in love.”
“…Huh!?”
Yes, during such a mundane happening, I had fallen in love with someone for the first time in my life.
Just by looking at her and talking to me, I could immediately feel my heart racing fast.
I knew all at once that what I was experiencing was indeed love.
…I thought it was all too simple myself.
However, this feeling I had, no matter what, I wanted to make it bear fruit.
♦♦♦
And so, after that, I really tried my best, I think.
Her hobbies, preferences, strong points, and weak points.
I gathered all the information I could from my friends, and really did my best so that I could become her ideal man.
I even had my hair, which had always been long up until my ears, cut short to have a more refreshing look.
When I heard that she liked guys who could cook, I made my way to join the home economics club and went to attend the cooking class. When I heard that she thought of guys who are athletic, cool, I went to a gym.
In addition, in order to have a connection with her, which was nonexistent, I mustered up all the courage I could and talked to her.
I did all of those—all for the sake of going out with her.
To make that happen, I spared no effort.
I devoted all of that long time—my whole second-year of middle school—all so that I could walk beside her.
And, finally when I became a third-year, on a certain day in April.
Determined, I tried to confess my feelings to her that day.
In order to be with her, in order to have the efforts I’ve made so far acknowledged.
So, I made my way to her classroom.
All while trying to keep my beating heart calm so it wouldn’t be heard.
And, when I opened their classroom door—
“Eh!? You really went out with him, Sayaka-chan?!”
“Congrats! What kind of person is he?”
“He’s from another school, you know~”
—What I heard was Kannazuki happily talking with the other girls.
And when I heard what their talk was about, I almost fell to my knees.
I felt the sensation of floating, as if I suddenly lost my footing. A feeling of lethargy, as if all the strength of my body was being drained. And—
“—…You’re kidding me, right?”
Thus, with all of my efforts left unacknowledged, my first love ended without bearing any fruit.
I couldn’t forget the feelings I had at that time, even when I became a first-year highschool student.
Even just by having to remember the figure of the girl whom I once loved, still makes my heart throb.
—It seemed that, she’s still dating that guy even until now.
In all honesty, I am certain that venturing out into the world to find a new love would be for the best.
However, I just couldn’t get rid of this first love I had even though I knew it wouldn’t bear fruit.
…But then, one day, I suddenly met a girl.
I never intended to.
Nonetheless, with just a small incident, I ended up getting involved with her.
“Please wake up, Manaka-san. It’s already morning.”
If she hadn’t been there, I wonder on which path would I have been running on now?
Left unchecked; would I have kept chasing her unreachable back?
“…Okay.”
“Geez, you really are a sleepy-head, aren’t you?”
A warm kindness that could gently enshroud me whole.
She said she wanted to repay the favor she owed me, but I had already received so much from her that I owe her far more than I could ever repay.
When I first met her, I was wary of her due to me finding something about her unlikeable.
However, our relationship has long since arrived to the point where we could completely trust each other.
And it was thanks to her that I could now move forward without looking back at the past.
—That’s why,
“Thank you.”
For meeting me, for supporting me, and for being there by my side,
Thank you.
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This sounds like a good novel..
And wait, that last sentence sounds like a epilogue or something lol