Ore wo Suki nano wa Omae dake ka yo - Chapter 6 Part 1

Chapter 6 – I Never Thought that this Would Happen

 

 

I wonder if Cosmos was doing well?

 

Friday. I left as soon as the meeting ended, saying that I had an urgent matter to take care of. This was in line with our plan to get Cosmos and Sun-chan to walk home together.

 

If it seemed like I was only focusing on Cosmos, well, that was wrong. Tomorrow was Himawari’s big day. After all, she’d be going on a movie date with Sun-chan.

 

She told me that she’d be acting like her usual self, but it was clear that she was really fired up about this.

 

Come to think of it, I was in a similar state to her last week.

 

Crazy, it had only been a week since then.

 

I swear it felt like it had been months. I guess that just showed how much effort I had been putting into this.

 

Anyway, I was currently in my room, doing my usual thing.

 

Well, not really since I didn’t really have to do much thinking for the events that transpired today and tomorrow. I still had to think for the next week though.

 

Then again, if Himawari were to confess her feelings tomorrow and succeeded, this whole thing would end right there and then. I wouldn’t need to think about this anymore and I’d finally attain the peace and quiet I had been craving for so long.

 

But, I highly doubt that would ever happen.

 

…Pansy’s words implied that something big would happen on Tuesday.

 

When I received her words, I was too busy reflecting on my actions that made her mad, so I failed to give her words much thought. I wonder what would happen?

 

Would both Himawari and Cosmos suddenly find me attractive and a love quadrilateral between us four be formed?

 

That would definitely count as ‘something big’ and it would accomplish 80% of my original goal. But, that would never happen.

 

Then again, I didn’t really care about those two anymore.

 

They only thought of me as a convenient friend and their mind was completely filled with Sun-chan and no one else. It was inevitable that I’d stop caring about them after going through all that.

 

Even if they were to find out about my feelings, they wouldn’t accept it. They’d just throw me aside coldly and forget about me after a while. Tch.

 

Nowadays, I just wanted either one of them or Pansy to go out with Sun-chan already. 

 

I just wanted to be free from all this. And from Pansy.

 

Also, I wish I could find a nice girl…

 

“Alright, I should start looking for one! Someone who loves me unconditionally, has a pretty face, big chest with a gentle and quiet personality!”

 

As soon as I shouted that, my phone rang.

 

[Did you call?]

“I wasn’t talking about you, ugly washboard!”

 

I replied to her with the same vigor I had when I shouted my last line.

 

Seriously, how could she reply at a perfect moment like that?!

Did she bug my room?!

 

No way that she’d go that far, right?

 

Rather, if she’d really go that far, I’d lose all my dignity. Alright, let’s just stop thinking about this!

“Hm?”

 

My phone rang again. What? Did Pansy still have something to say to me?

 

I checked my phone, but the message wasn’t from Pansy. It was from Cosmos.

 

[Can we meet tomorrow?]

 

…This meant that something big had happened with her and Sun-chan.

 

Did Cosmos confess her feelings to him?

 

I mean, that girl had quite a girly side to her.

 

It wouldn’t be too far-fetched to think that she got carried away by the atmosphere and confessed in an impulse.

 

Then, she failed spectacularly.

 

After that, in her gloomy state, she texted me about it. Yeah, this was a quite possible scenario to happen.

 

There was no way that Sun-chan accepted her, after all, if he did, the message she sent me wouldn’t be like this.

 

Instead, it would be something along the line of, ‘I did it! Thank you, Joro-kun! It’s all thanks to you! Thank you very much!’

 

Jeez… This reminded me that we went out together last Saturday too.

 

I lamented the fact that I had to spend my weekend dealing with someone else’s love life. Then again, I wanted to finish this matter as quickly as possible, so it wasn’t like I had much choice. And so, I replied, ‘Got it,’ to her.

 

*   *   *

 

Our meeting place was the same as last time, near the police box in front of the station.

 

This time, I didn’t go there an hour earlier than the appointed time.

 

I decided to go there ten minutes before the appointed time. Like last time, I dressed quite fashionably as well. There was something that I was wondering about though…

 

Last time, that girl went to our meeting place thirty minutes earlier.

 

Since she was such an earnest girl, there was a possibility that she’d do the same this time as well.

 

Well, who cares.

 

Now, where was she?

 

I took a look around to find her…there.

 

She looked pretty awful…to say the least…

 

Her complexion didn’t look good. It seemed like she was exhausted because of something. She was wearing a pure white one piece dress. Her slumped shoulders expressed her state of mind perfectly. Like her shoulders, her head was also slumped down. With her long hair drooped down, she looked like she came straight out of a cursed tape. (T/N: Reference to Ring, the famed Japanese horror movie. It was a reference to the scene where the ghost, Sadako Yamamura, came out of the monitor when they were watching one of the cursed tapes.)

 

Like usual, she attracted some gazes from her surroundings, though this time in a kinda bad way.

 

I guess she got dumped, huh?

 

For the time being, I managed to come up with some words of comfort for her. They should be enough to cheer her up.

 

“P-Prez?”

 

There was a moment of hesitation when I tried to call out to her.

 

Honestly, she was scary. In a different way than Dark Cosmos was.

 

“H-Heya…”

 

It wasn’t her usual high-spirited ‘Heya,’ but one filled with a deep sense of despair. It was as if she had seen the world crumbling before her very eyes.

 

For her to ask other people to meet up while she was still in this kind of state… How rude.

 

“W-What happened?”

“This isn’t the right place to talk. Can we go somewhere else?”

“G-Got it…”

 

Upon hearing my response, she pulled my hand and started walking like Sada**. (T/N: Sadako.)

 

I beg you, please, act like a normal person. Think of the other people’s gazes!

*   *   *

 

Sadacosmos brought me to a coffee shop. (T/N: Sadako + Cosmos.)

 

It was your usual, plain coffee shop.

 

With a woman wearing a crown with a star on it with her surroundings painted in green, the logo of the coffee shop stood out. (T/N: Starbucks, if you somehow didn’t get it.)

 

I didn’t want to stand in line with her, so I told Cosmos to reserve a seat for us. This automatically put me in charge of buying and delivering the drinks. A brief moment for me to be alone, finally… Phew…

 

After that, I received the tray with our drinks on it from the waiter’s experienced hands.

 

“…Uwah…”

 

When I went to our seat, I was struck speechless.

 

Cosmos-san gloomily scribbled on her notebook. Line after line.

 

From where I stood, I could hear her mumbling, ‘Eliminate, eliminate, eliminate…’ Mikami-san, where were you? (T/N: Probably referring to Mikami Teru from Death Note?)

 

Should I really go there? Could I just ditch her?

 

“Um… Are you okay?”

“Ah, yes, I’m fine.”

 

No matter how I tried to look at it, there was no way that you were okay.

 

I took a peek at her note. There was a line that said: Things I want to do with Sun-chan.

 

The horizontal lines that filled the note pages perfectly represented her despair.

 

“So, what happened?”

 

I asked her in a worried tone. Though, I already had a guess on what happened to her.

 

She was heartbroken. It was obvious if you were to take a look at her.

 

If there was a chance to take advantage of the situation, now would be the perfect chance, but I decided not to take it because I had completely lost my interest in her.

 

Well, with your look, you could just get another guy easily, so cheer up.

 

Also, it was hard to bear, but I’ll do my best to endure the gazes people have been giving me.

 

“Um… On Friday…”

 

And so, Cosmos started to talk about what happened after school on Friday. (P.S. I wasn’t there, so I wouldn’t be monologuing the next part, enjoy. The place where the conversation occurred was a park on the way to their homes from school.)

 

*   *   *

 

“Thank you very much for today! The lunch you made tasted amazing!”

“R-Really? I-I’m happy that you enjoyed it!”

“But, I feel bad that I’m the only one receiving something from you. I wanna give you something in return, Cosmos-san.”

“N-No, it’s okay! You’ve helped me enough, I don’t need anything else!”

“If I don’t give you something, I’d feel bad about it, so please? Let me do something for you at least.”

“I-Is that so? T-Then…”

“You can ask me anything! Ah, as long as it’s within my capabilities, that is.”

“Hahaha, what did you think I’d ask you to do? I won’t ask you to do something outrageous.”

“Alright, then! Ask me anything!”

“Alright… Um… You don’t need to agree, you can refuse me if you want to…”

“Okay!”
“Can you go home together with me again in the future? I really enjoy this moment with you…”

“Like, without Joro?”

“I-I mean, I’m fine with him being around, but I want us to occasionally have time together by ourselves like this…”

“Sure! I guess there are some things that you don’t want Joro to hear about, huh? We can go home together once in a while. Joro should be fine with it as long as we tell him in advance!”

“R-Really?! T-Thank you!”

“Don’t mind it! But, are you sure this is what you want? You don’t want me to do something else?”

“You don’t need to! I really only want you to do that for me!”

“Alright then! …By the way, Cosmos-san.”

“Y-Yes?”

“Is there someone that you like?”

“E-Eh? S-Someone that I like?!”

“That reaction, so there is someone, huh?”

“W-What is it all of the sudden?!”

“Well, you look just like me when Joro asked me that question.”

“I-I see, y-you talked to Joro-kun about that, huh?… S-So does that mean that there is someone that you like?”

“Ah well, when you ask me that, it feels embarrassing… But, yes, there’s someone that I like!”

“U-Um… M-May I know who?…”

“It’s embarrassing, but I guess I could tell you about her…”

“Um?”
“Alright, I’ll tell you about her, Cosmos-san! I swear you’ll be the only one I’ll tell about this, Cosmos-san!”

“I-I’m the only one?”
“You know, I…”

“Y-Yes…”

 

“I love Sanshokuin Sumireko-san!”

 

“Eh?”

“Sanshokuin Sumireko-san! You know, the library committee member? I’ve been in love with her since last year, but I haven’t been able to get closer to her ever since. So, if you know a way for me to get to know her better, can you tell me about it, Cosmos-san? Please give me some advice!”

“S-Sanshokuin-san?…”

“Yes! Since you’re the student council president, Cosmos-san, I figured that you might know how to get closer to her! T-That’s why, um… If you don’t mind, can you help me out?”

“M-Me?…”

“Yes! Ah… Is it impossible, after all?”

“N-No! I-I’ll help you out! J-Just leave it to me!”

“Really? Thank you very much! You’re a lifesaver, Cosmos-san!”

 

*   *   *

 

What the hell did you do, Sun-chan?! That was the worst thing that you could have done!

 

It would be way better if you were to just reject her instead!

 

“You…knew…didn’t you?”

 

Cosmos looked at me with a gloomy look on her face.

 

Scary. Dark Cosmos was scary, but her current voice sounded like it came from the depth of the abyss. I’ll dub her as Abyss Cosmos from now on.

 

Wait, this wasn’t the right time to think about that!

 

“I…knew…”

“Why didn’t you tell me?…”

 

She began to shed tears after saying that.

 

This was the first time I’ve seen her in tears like this.

 

I always thought that she was someone who’d never shed any tears no matter what the situation was.

 

“There’s no way…I could tell you that…”

“Tell me!”

 

Her tragic aura hit me with a full force.

 

Nevertheless, I still tried to appeal to her desperately with my words.

 

“I know how much you like Sun-chan… There’s no way that I could tell you that Sun-chan already has someone in mind.”

 

I meant it when I said those words.

 

Yes, it was mostly me who did the dirty job for her, but she was working hard on her own way.

 

There was no way that I’d just coldly tell her to give up on him just like that.

 

Besides, there was still a slight chance that Sun-chan might give up on his love.

 

“Is that really the reason why you didn’t tell me about it? Is that really the case?”

“Eh?”

 

Her words confused me. What was she trying to say?

 

“Sun-chan told me, ‘When I was consulting Joro, he told me that whenever I have to tackle a problem, I should believe in the people that I trust and try to solve it with all my strength. In both love and baseball, I have to give it my all!’”

 

Oi, oi, what the hell was that? I’ve never said anything like that before!

“I-I’ve never even said that!”

“Stop lying. Sun-chan told me that you were the one who told him this when he compared his love problem to baseball.”

 

Baseball? Huh? Wait… Could it be?…

 

“Um… Assuming I’m in an important baseball game, when the opposing team’s fourth batter comes out, what do you think I should do? Should I let him walk?”

“Hmm… Well, if it was me, I’d give him the walk… But you are different from me, aren’t you, Sun-chan? You trust in yourself and your friends. Never run away no matter how tough the situation gets. That’s the Sun-chan I know.”

“Right… I guess so, huh? Thank you, Joro! I’m happy to hear that coming from you!”

 

You got it wrong, Sun-chan! That wasn’t what I was trying to say!

 

“It seems that you know what I’m talking about.”

“N-No! That wasn’t what I meant when I—”

“Enough. That just meant you were never on my side. I’m disappointed in you…”

 

Oi, oi, wait a minute! Just listen to me first!

Why the hell did you take everything Sun-chan said at face value but you never even tried to listen to me?!

 

I was the one who was helping you all this time!

“Goodbye, Joro-kun. The worst kind of human being.”

 

With that, Cosmos got up and left the coffee shop.

 

That was awful… The worst development possible…

 

…Wait, she didn’t even pay for her drink!

 

She didn’t even try to listen to me, abused me with her words and just left without paying!

 

“Just my luck… Huh?”

 

Just as Cosmos walked away, my phone vibrated.

 

Who the hell texted me at times like this?

 

If this wasn’t an important text, I swear… Huh, it was from Himawari.

 

[Can I see you tomorrow?]

 

Just by seeing those words, I could tell.

 

I realized that the worst development possible that I was talking about had barely even begun.

 

TL: Iyo

ED: Iyo

 

 

 

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