I Was Hired As A Tutor By A Cute Little Devilish Junior - Chapter 57 Feelings
On the same day I nursed Shiina, who had caught a cold, I spent the night at her house with her prior permission.
I knew I was being overprotective, even for a mere cold, but honestly, I couldn’t help it.
I was simply worried about Shiina, who was studying and working too hard every day. That was undeniably my true feeling.
As a tutor and as her senpai, I have always done my utmost to help her.
In a sense, that may have put pressure on her. In the first place, was I able to do something for her?
With all these thoughts running through my head, I could not fall asleep that day.
In the morning, I woke up on the living room couch to a delicious aroma that tickled my nostrils.
I sat up and searched for the source of the smell with my half-opened eyes and saw Shiina standing in the kitchen making breakfast.
When Shiina noticed that I had woken up, she stopped what she was doing.
“Good morning, Senpai.”
“Good morning. Are you feeling alright?”
“Of course. You nursed me very well.”
“Really?”
After that, yesterday’s memories come flooding back to my empty head from sleep, one after another.
Thinking back on it again, I could feel the awful feeling that I really had done it, and it pierced my heart.
“If Senpai was this concerned about me, I might have had a cold for just a little while longer.”
“Don’t be silly. I was really worried about you.”
“I know. I know. I was joking. I’m sorry.”
Even so, the corners of her mouth were curled, and she resumed cooking while humming a tune.
After breakfast with Shiina, she immediately began studying.
Today was Saturday. Once again, I feel glad it was a Friday that Shiina caught a cold.
Otherwise, it would have been difficult for me to take care of her as I did last night.
Perhaps thanks to this, she was feeling much better, but it was clear that she was still ill.
Of course it was good for her to study hard, but needless to say, I was more worried about her.
“Hey, Shiina.”
“…”
“Hey, Shiina?”
“Ah, I’m sorry. Is something wrong?”
“…Umm, are you okay?”
“Y-Yes, I can afford a problem of this magnitude.”
“No…I know, that was a bad question.”
“No, it’s thanks to Senpai that I’m able to do this.”
That smile was always the same. And yet, for some reason, her face was misty in my eyes.
There were only a few days left until the exams. She lost a day to study because she had a cold. I could understand her impatience.
And of course, I wanted to support her as she worked hard toward it.
However, the more I thought about it, the more the hazy feeling in my heart grew and my chest tightened.
I almost reached out to her to grab something, but in the end, I couldn’t grab anything.
“…Shiina.”
Unable to bear the pain in my chest, I found myself saying her name again.
“Senpai…?”
Shiina, whose name was called again, looked at me with a strange look on her face.
I stared back at her face, a little troubled, and then slowly opened my mouth.
“May I take a day off from tutoring today?”
“Eh…?”
Shiina stiffens as if shot through with something.
She stared into my eyes for a few moments. Then, when she realized I was not joking, she turned her face down.
“Do you not want to study with me…?”
“Of course not. I’ve never once disliked being with Shiina.”
“But…then why…?”
“That’s…”
I quieted up in response to that question. I was worried about Shiina, that was all, but I couldn’t formulate the right words.
She had a clear goal and was doing her best to achieve it. It’s my job to support her…and it was not too much to say that it was my duty.
Maybe that was why. On the one hand, I don’t want her to be overwhelmed, but on the other hand, I couldn’t let her motivation go unrewarded.
As a result, perhaps I couldn’t say that I was worried about Shiina just by words.
“I understand that studying is not a bad thing and that Shiina is doing her best. But more than that…I’m worried about Shiina more than you think.”
“B-B-But I promised…that if I came in first place.”
“I know. I understand how important it is.”
“Then…!”
“I’m worried about you! I’m worried about Shiina, not as a kouhai, not as a student, but as a girl who is important to me!”
“…”
I found myself surprised to find that I had raised my voice.
I looked at Shiina, who was surprised by me, and I calmed down a little to catch my breath.
“…Just for one day, let me stay with you, not a teacher or a senpai. This is my selfish, lifelong request to Shiina.”
“B-But I…Still, I…”
She stumbled over her words and looked away without saying anything. As if she didn’t want me to see her face.
Then, with her back to me, she gripped the pen in her right hand and her body trembled as if enduring something.
All I could do was stare at her back. This was just a request, selfishness on my part.
…But still, I just couldn’t give in. Just for today, I just couldn’t make up my mind.
That was why I…
…I closed in on the trembling body.
“Se-Senpai!?”
I put my arm around Shiina from her shoulder and wrapped it around her.
Her slender body was completely in my arms.
I hugged Shiina, who was extremely flustered, even tighter and pulled her to me to not letting her go anywhere.
After holding her as she was for a while, she let out a shaky voice in a different way than before.
“S-Senpai. U-Umm…what is this…?”
“Sorry, did you not like it?”
“N-No. I don’t hate it, and if anything, I’m, you know, I’m happy about it…but…”
“That’s good.”
“I-It’s not good! I don’t mind, but it’s embarrassing!”
“Well, to be honest, I might be embarrassed too.”
“I-If so. Y-You should let go…”
“No.”
“…Eh, um, that’s why…”
“No.”
She asked and I just straight-up refused. It was true that I was honestly very embarrassed. But that doesn’t mean I would stop.
“Sorry, but I’m not going to let go until Shiina takes the rest of the day off.”
“Are you going to stay like this forever until then!?”
“Yeah. And I’d appreciate it if you could make a decision as soon as possible…”
“Senpai is crossing that line! W-Why are you doing this…”
“I told you. I’m worried about Shiina. That’s really all.”
“Senpai…”
I thought this was really weird.
Probably because this was the first time in my life that I had ever been so forceful.
I had no idea that I would be so forceful with her. Once again, I felt strange about my relationship with her.
Of course, it was a cold, but generally speaking, it was just a normal cold.
No matter how important she was to me, I indeed was worrying too much about her. I already knew that.
But I found myself in such a situation. My mind was so occupied with her that I didn’t even act like myself.
How much time had passed? Shiina’s hand touched my arm holding her.
The warmth of her hand, which was warmer than anything else, penetrated my heart.
“…I understand. I’ll give up for Senpai just for today.”
“Really…?”
“Yes. Because I’ve never had Senpai worry about me this much, and I’ve never seen Senpai need me this much before.”
“I feel pretty shameful to hear that.”
“So, I have no choice but to be with you today as Senpai’s precious girl.”
“…Thank you.”
I was greatly relieved by that answer, which was typical of Shiina.
A little bit of cheekiness, and yet not mean. I was reassured that she was the same as she always was, even though I deserved worse.
After thanking Shiina, I slowly tried to release my arms.
“But I have one condition.”
“Eh?”
Shiina grabbed me by the arm.
Unable to move away from her, she continued to speak.
“Stay like this until I say so.”
“…You mean it, Shiina?”
“Yes. Senpai started this, and you’ll take responsibility for it, won’t you?”
“…Got it.”
“Ehehe, I got your word!”
Giving up, I put my arms back that was about to let go and hugged her body again.
Without any resistance, she also leaned her weight on me.
Her warmth enveloped me, and my warmth enveloped her again. We just shared each other’s body heat.
But I didn’t think I’d ever had such a happy time. I felt like all five of my senses were feeling it.
“Senpai.”
“Yes.”
“Please hold on to me tight.”
“Yeah. Of course.”
I wouldn’t let go of her without being told. I didn’t want to let go.
“Please keep your eyes on me.”
“Yeah. I’m always looking.”
There was not a day that went by when I was not looking at or thinking about Shiina.
“Please…”
Shiina kept telling her requests of me.
However, even if it was obvious or something that can be conveyed without saying it, if it was not put into words, it cannot truly be understood by the other person.
“Please. Please don’t ever let me go.”
And so—
“Yeah, I won’t let go. Ever.”
I had fallen in love with her again. (Raw: 俺は彼女を、また一つ好きになる)
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