I (30), Who Works for a Black Company and Died While Regretting My Gloomy Life, Started Over From High School! - Chapter 61

Chapter 61 This time, I won’t betray my sister’s smile ③.

“Oh, that was so funny! There’s really no shortage of stories about my brother…”

Kanako, who had been laughing to the point of tears, heaved and caught her breath.
　
As usual, this sister laughs too much at her brother.

(Well, I’m not going to tell you that makes me happy…)

To tell you the truth, after I started over in this life, I was a little worried about how to deal with Kanako, with whom I had very little interaction in my previous life.

And in the end, I decided to start by addressing her naturally as my brother anyway, hoping that we could have a different relationship than in our previous lives.

As a result, Kanako, who in my previous life was just a roommate living in the same house, started to smile in front of me. This is one of the most valuable jewel-like achievements I’ve won in this life.

“Huh… Hey, bro.”

“Hmm? What’s up?”

After laughing for a while, Kanako let out a breath and lowered the tone of her voice for some reason.

Then I gulped slightly.

It was because her sister’s face was not as bright and innocent as usual, and for some reason she had a very mysterious expression on her face.

“Today, I’m having a lot of fun.”

“What’s this, all of a sudden?”

“Since you’ve been so cheerful, the house has changed a lot. Mom always looks so happy. And I feel so much better too.”

“That’s because I want my mother to always have a smile on her face.”

Making life easier for my mother and giving her a happy life was my biggest goal in this life, even more than revenge for my youth. For this reason, I actively helped with household chores such as cooking and laundry, and worked hard to improve my grades.

And then one day, my mom said to me:

“Of course, I’m happy that you’ re helping me with the chores and that you got first place on the test. But what makes me the happiest is that you’ve gained confidence in yourself.”

“I’m very happy to know that you can now walk through life on your own,” she said.

In this life, I often cried when I talked to my mother, but this time I cried more than when I saw her again.

I couldn’t stop crying, wondering why I couldn’t repay the person who loved me so much in my previous life.

“Okay, so. Brother. I’m only going to talk to you once, so listen carefully, okay?”

Kanako says, her eyes swimming in embarrassment.

What is it? What’s really wrong with this girl?

“I’m happy. It’s fun to be able to say what I want to say to my brother like we did when we were kids.”

“…Eh?”

“You’ve been building a wall between us for some time now. You thought you lived in a dark world and I live in a world of sparkling light, didn’t you?”

That was completely true.

In my previous life, I was a typical shady guy, so I kept my distance so that I wouldn’t be annoyed by the sunny Kanako. Kanako is not a shady person like me, so I shouldn’t get involved with her- that’s what I thought.

“No, because you’re beautiful, bright, and popular at school. And you thought I was a dark-hearted guy, too, didn’t you?”

“I’ve always thought of my brother as a dark-hearted otaku. But, that didn’t mean I didn’t like it. Even if you weren’t the cheerful brother you are now, I would have gone out with you as much as I could if you would have told me to talk nonsense and play games in my room like we used to do.”

I was stunned to hear Kanako’s words.

I thought that my good relationship with my sister in this life was established because I was able to speak clearly after I got rid of my negative attitude in my previous life.

But the truth is that I had just put up a wall and assumed that my sister shunned my dark and incompetent brother, and that we could always talk like we did when we were kids if I just stepped out of the shadows – that’s what I thought.

“Well, it’s the same for me. I kept stomping my feet, not knowing whether to step into my brother’s avoidance of me. Just one word: ‘Let’s have a conversation about love, bro! Or we can go hang out together!’ I’m sure I could have told you that.”

“Kanako……”

I realized that I really didn’t know anything.

I’ve always assumed that Kanako, with her glittering life, would find a shady brother like me an eyesore.

Kanako had never dreamed that she would rather go back to a normal relationship where they could talk like they used to.

“So, what I’m trying to say is this: the fact that you have brightened up and are able to talk like this, and that you have returned to the way you were when we were kids, makes me very happy and grateful! Oh, my God, I’ll never say this embarrassing thing again!”

Kanako’s face turned bright red and she shouted in desperation.

“…Don’t tell me that being a baggage handler today was just an excuse, and you just wanted to get a chance to tell me that?”

“Ugh! Nonono! Why do you only use your intuition in such areas? That only makes it even more embarrassing, you idiot brother!”

At the same time, I realized that my sins in my previous life had become even deeper.

(The fact that Kanako in this life thought this way means that Kanako in her previous life was the same way, at least until she was in middle school, right?)

–Why am I so stupid?!

What reverberates in my mind are the last words I exchanged with my sister in my previous life.

If Kanako had always hated me as a shady person, her cursed words at that time would have only hurt my heart.

But what if it wasn’t that she hated me?

What if she was dreaming that one day we would be able to laugh together like we did when we were children – I wonder how the adult Kanako felt when she said that …….

(Sorry… I am so sorry, Kanako…)

I sincerely apologized to my sister from a previous life that I will never see again.

I don’t know if that future never happened, or if it was a parallel world that continued after I died…

Regardless, no matter what, the sins I committed in my previous life will never go away.

It’s something I’ll have to remember until the end of my life.

“…Thanks, Kanako.”

I stroked my sister’s head, her cheeks still dyed red.

Kanako reacted with a shocked “Wait, what?!” She was dismayed, but she didn’t push my hand away.

“I’m so glad to hear that, because I assumed that you hated me for being so gloomy before… I’m so happy to be able to laugh with you and my mom and everything.a It’s like a dream!”

“A dream? You’re overreacting, bro.”

When I let go of the hand that was stroking her head, my sister muttered this with a look of embarrassment still on her face.

No. It’s a dream, Kanako.

The Nihama family now is the ideal itself, with all my regrets cleared up.

That’s why I’m going to protect our family ties this time.

I won’t end up like I did in my previous life, making you curse your brother.

“All right! Hey, Kanako! If you want a parfait, I’ll buy you one! Leave it to me!”

“Oh, really?! Then I’ll have a giant chocolate sundae tropical deluxe parfait! I heard it cost something like 2,000 yen!”

“Whoa! What’s on that menu? I mean, I don’t have much money either, so go easy on me!”

“Yeah, but a parfait is a parfait! It looks like it’s really big, so you should eat it with me!”

Kanako, who has regained her usual form, smiles mischievously.

Ah, yes.

That’s the kind of face that suits you after all.

“Oh, my God, I get it! Then we’ll have that giant parfait, Kanako! I looked at the menu and it said something about a minimum of four people being recommended due to the large quantity, but let’s show them what we siblings can do!”

“Whoa! That’s what I’m talking about! Hahahahahaha! You’re really getting into the mood, bro!”

You may not be able to change your past life, but you can change your future life.

I’m sure I’ll be able to prove that the Nihama family had a happy future even with that ending.

I promised myself that I would never betray the childlike smile on Kanako’s face this time.　

As for the giant parfait, she said, “The appetite of a high school student and a junior high school student should be enough!” “A girl’s stomach is limitless when it comes to sweets!” We were all so excited to eat.

A cream that looked as big as Mount Fuji in a parfait glass that looked like a megaphone arrived, and I will remember with regret that we both unintentionally made a straight face.

TL: Helena
ED: Tom
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