I (30), Who Works for a Black Company and Died While Regretting My Gloomy Life, Started Over From High School! - chapter 6

6.-On the first day- Going Home together Event

(Oh, I’m tired…those kinds of people are troublesome, but they want to keep up appearances to the people around them, so it’s easy if you get a hold of their weakness.)

There were times when my colleague’s gal employee often forced me to do her work, and when I complained about it, she would say, “Nihama pushes me to do his work!” ” I was sexually harassed!”

I found out on SNS that she spent the vacation in Tokyo while saying “My mother got sick and I need to take a day off!”, And when I brought it up, she broke into a cold sweat and stopped messing with me after that.

“Oh, that ……Thank you very much, Nihama-kun…….”

“I haven’t done much. I came because I heard a girl’s loud voice even though there shouldn’t be anyone in the school building … I’m glad if it helps.”

Shijouin-san’s complexion is bad.

Of course it is. It would be terrible to get involved with those people who have no logic whatsoever..

“I’m sorry for the inconvenience ……, but I really appreciate your help……”

“… Shijoin-san, are you going home by a car or something?”

“No, my father always recommended a car to take me to and from school, but I wanted to do it like everyone, so I always walked normally.”

“”I see. Then, uh, well, …… the sun has completely set, and, uh, I’ll send you home..”

I tried to act like it was nothing, but at this point I was so nervous that I was sweating like crazy.

Now I have a much stronger mentality than when I was in high school, thanks to my company slave days.

However, since I’m a virgin, I need to muster my courage and squeeze my mental strength to say something like a main character of a manga or drama, such as “I’ll send you home” to the girl I admired.

I wanted to, though.

As a man who was in love with her, It was unacceptable for me to let her walk home alone in the city at night.

“Well, is that okay? I’d be very happy if you wouldn’t mind!”

Shijoin-san smile relieved me of the fear of being rejected.

However, even me, who was a gloomy guy until yesterday said that I will send her home, …This smile, Is she an angel or something?She’s a little too innocent and I’m worried about her future …

Anyway, this is how My and Shijoin-san’s going home together event has started.

……

“The Bladers! is the best! In the last scene of the first part, when she casts Dark slave to protect him even if the world turns against her, I cried so hard. ……!

“That’s the part that makes you cry. And then, just when you think it’s all over, there’s that twist at the ending! It was really the best….!”

“Yes! That’s right!”

Walking on the street alone with a girl.

When I was working at the company, I sometimes came across such a situation on business trips, outside work, drinking parties, and so on.

However, as I don’t have much experience chatting with the opposite sex, my repution dropped because of my poor communication skill, and as a result, I could not cooperate well at work and my boss got mad at me.

So I came up with an idea

I feel very good when I can talk about my hobbies like games and novels to the fullest.

If so, why not do the same with the opposite sex?That’s the idea.

(This was a big success….Whether it’s a woman or a boss, If you talk with them about the things they love, like their pet or their favorite baseball team, they’ll usually be in a good mood.It became easy and we started to get along..)

“That’s right, that’s when the MC went to–”

In fact,Shijoin-san looks very happy.

She had been reading pure literature all the time, but when she found a light novel in the library, she became completely hooked on it.

Thinking back, when I was reading a light novels in the library, she suddenly asked me, “Are you familiar with light novels, Nihama-kun?” That was my first conversation with Shijoin-san.

Well, because I was suddenly approached by the beautiful girl of my dreams, of course I was very nervous and can only speak shyly at that time.

“I’m glad. It looks like you’re feeling better.”

” Yes. I feel much better after speaking to my heart’s content.”

That’s the best thing.

Forget about the harassment and do what you like to do to heal your mind. If you can’t do that, you’ll end up getting mentally ill.

“You really helped me … Actually, it’s not the first time that it happened to me, but I just couldn’t get used to it. ……”

“How many times has that happened to you?”

“Yeah, since I was on first grade of elementary, I was often told “you’re getting carried away” and “you’re an eyesore”….”

A first grader in elementary school? …Is there anyone that would say that at the age of 6?….. Women are scary …….

“… Honestly, I don’t know what they want from me … But I can tell that they really hate me … I’m scared. I’m really glad that Nihama-kun helped me…”

Shijoin looked up at my face with a puppy-like expression who is worried about its owner. My heart squirmed with such a cute gesture, but I managed to endure it.

(But …… I see, Shijoin-san isn’t aware of the reason. She doesn’t seem to have ever been jealous of others or anything like that…..)

“That…I think Shijoin-san should be aware of the reason why people like Hanayama get entangled with you.”

“Eh? Do you know, Nihama-kun? Then please tell me! If there’s something wrong with me, I want to fix it!

“I understand. That’s because– Shijoin-san is beautiful and kind.”

“Eh…………?”

“In other words, they’re jealous. Everyone doesn’t have the beauty and kindness of Shijoin-san, so they can’t help but to be jealous”

“No, no, what are you talking about! I’m not like that …!”

“No, no matter how you look at it, You’re a beautiful woman. I think you should be aware of that fact.”

The reason for encouraging Shijoin-san to be aware of why she’s being entangled, Is to prevent her from losing self confidence. She may suffer from the thought “Is there something wrong with me” if nothing was done.

“So it’s not your fault, Shijoin-san. Now, recite the words. “It’s not my fault”.”

“What, “It’s not my fault”…? Eh, but is that really the case? Maybe there’s some other reason that’s making them uncomfortable…”

“Yes, you can’t think like that. So I want you to say, ‘It’s not my fault’ ten more times.”

“Eh!?”

Although Shijoin-san is confused, perhaps because of her honest nature, she began to chant, “It’s not my fault”.

But this is very important and absolutely necessary.

My tone has been stronger since a while ago because I desperately need to change Shijoin-san’s self-punishing way of thinking.

(Because it was always the serious and kind guy who gets ruined in a black company.Even if they are forced to do unreasonable work or are criticized by the people around them, they think, ‘It’s my fault”, so they get more and more stressed and …… finally they collapse.)

And that is probably the reason why Shijoin-san was ruined in the future.Because she couldn’t understand that the reason of bullying was just jealousy, she was too worried about it and it broke her.

In order to prevent such a future, this thought altering is a must.

“‘It’s not my fault” “’It’s not my fault”… is this okay?”

“Oh, if someone like Hanayama gets involved with you in the future,  just say, “It’s not my fault”. It is usually difficult for them to say, “I don’t like you because you’re more beautiful than me,” so they use convenient words, like “you’re getting carried away”.”

“Really?”

“That’s right. There are a lot of people who will chew you out because of jealousy, and it doesn’t make any sense to change yourself, so it’s important to go through them well … What happened?”

For some reason, Shijoin-san was staring at my face and looked a little embarrassed.

“No, Nihama-kun’s face was so serious … and I was happy when I thought you were really concerned about me.”

“That’s true, of course. I don’t like Shijoin-san to be troubled.”

“…….”

At this time, I remembered that Shijoin-san suffered a mental breakdown in the future, and I was desperate to pick the buds of ruin, wondering if such a future would be repeated.

So I was paralyzed by the embarrassment of my lines and I didn’t notice Shijoin-san’s flushed cheeks and breathlessness.

“Ah … that … Nihama-kun …”

“Yup?”

“You said earlier that they’re jealous because I look good, but… am I beautiful from Nihama-kun’s point of view?”

“Oh, of course, from the first time I saw you, I was so surprised at how beautiful you are.”

“~~~~!”

My head was spinning with honesty, but it was really my honest feeling.

After that, —- for some reason, Shijoin-san’s cheeks turned bright red for a little while and she became less talkative, but we walked home, chatting as we went.

It was a truly blissful time that I had never before experienced.